I Still Am

Day 2 of my 7 songs in 7 days series. Song #2 is…

Kelly Clarkson’s “Sober”

This song is off of Kelly’s 2007 release, “My December”, which is not her greatest album but it’s not like she could put out anything bad. This album just wasn’t my favorite. This song, however?

This song is a fucking gem.

I first listened to this song as a sort of break up anthem, because of lyrics like “been a long road since those hands I left those tears in” and “3 months and it’s still hard enough, 3 months I’ve been living here without you now” and I’m sure in 2007 I was trying to get over somebody.

dont want to date me

However, a couple of years later I got stupid and made some really bad mistakes–like getting a DUI…twice. So then this song took on a whole new meaning for me. Not only because it was a time in my life that I needed to physically get sober, but because I also needed to mentally get sober as well.

glass case of emotion

The lyrics that really got to me, like punched me in the heart, were:

And I don’t know
I could crash and burn but maybe
at the end of this road I might catch a glimpse of me

and

Three months and I’m getting better, yeah
Three months and I still am

For a long time I was just going through the motions, but this song reminded me that I. STILL. AM. And even though there are days where I sometimes don’t quite know who I am or what I am doing, I. STILL. AM.

Ok, maybe not quite Beyonce, but you get the point.
Ok, maybe I’m not quite Beyonce, but you get the point.

So yea, this song kind of shows the power of music and how magical it is that a song could mean one thing to you at one point in your life and then completely change its meaning at a different moment.

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